Book Review: Gentleman Sinner by Jodi Ellen Malpas

I haven’t read this genre for such a long time, but decided I fancied a change from psychological thrillers when I spotted the book on sale in ASDA.

Izzy White finds herself in danger one evening when, while walking home from work, she is confronted by an assailant after she goes to the aid of an injured prostitute. The notorious and wildly attractive Theo Kane swoops to her rescue, and the flame of attraction between them is instant.

The story begins so promisingly, although a little far-fetched, with the swoon-worthy Theo basically stalking Izzy both at home and in Las Vegas, when she jets off on a girls holiday with her friend and roommate Jess. He appears to be utterly obsessed with Izzy, and the feeling is mutual.

But Theo has issues. He cannot handle being touched after a traumatic childhood filled with abuse at the hands of his father. Izzy, in her turn, is recovering from a rape ten years earlier. Although they both want to be together, neither is willing to confront their demons and give their relationship a real chance.

From here, things get increasingly messy, and Theo becomes a bit of a liability, in all honesty. First of all, Izzy loses her job and the respect of her manager, after Theo loses his temper catastrophically at the hospital. Then, he (unwittingly, I might add) invites her rapist to his club to incite a reaction from her. When this plan fails drastically, he punches her in the face when she unexpectedly touches him.

This in itself is bad enough. But it gets worse. Instead of apologising, he goes on to kill her rapist after beating him to a pulp.

It doesn’t stop there. When Izzy needs him the most, he takes the self-pitying route and does a runner!

Of course, there is a happy ending, but the ridiculousness of the plot lead to the 3-star review. Other than that, it is well-written and will probably appeal to fans of the genre.

Personally, I was also hoping for better sex scenes. While being restrained is hot, a lack of foreplay isn’t! But that’s just me. 🤷🏻‍♀️

I am BACK!!!

Hellooooo! Remember me? I’m back, at last! Yes, I know. You thought I’d disappeared for good. To be honest, so did I. I completely lost my writing mojo for a while back there.

When you last encountered me, I was attempting to get my life coaching business off the ground. At first, I was extremely enthusiastic and raring to go. But it is so easy to become disillusioned when faced with obstacle after obstacle. As I currently work Monday – Friday at my day job, it is difficult to find the time to commit to anything else, and what I assumed would be fantastic turned out to be a flash in the pan.

I still want to be a freelancer though, and it took eight months of soul searching to finally settle on my future career.

Meet Jo Sexton – Proofreader and Copy-editor.

If you need a proofreader, I’m your girl. My website is currently under construction and I’m extremely excited about this. I have oodles of experience and am very meticulous and passionate about proofreading.

I will share the link to my website once it is up-and-running.

Happy Friday!

Persevering

First of all, I just want to thank those of you who took the time to read/like/comment on my weekend post. I wasn’t in a good place at the time and needed to get a lot of frustration off my chest. Afterwards, I did consider deleting it on more than one occasion – I wasn’t sure if I explained fully how I was feeling, or even why I was feeling the way I did. In hindsight, I thought that it would seem a little trivial to those of you who are depressed for real, authentic reasons. But then I realised – when you suffer from clinical depression, anything can be a trigger, no matter how big or small. Nobody was going to judge me on that.

For me in this case, it is a result of working my heart and soul out for a company that takes me for granted, and will continue taking me for granted until I decide enough is enough. My problem, or my greatest asset, whichever way you want to look at it, is that I pride myself on doing the very best I can, whether I am happy or not. If I have a job to do, I will knuckle down and get it done. And that is where I have gone wrong with this company – they are taking advantage of my work ethic rather than awarding me for it.

So I need to leave and take my loyalty and my integrity elsewhere.

Of course, it isn’t that easy. I can’t wake up one morning and think, “sod it, I’m not going back”, much as I’d like to. I have bills to pay and mouths to feed.

So my only other option is to find another job. Easier said than done, but I will persevere. They won’t break me.

I just need to be careful that I don’t break me.

Happy Monday! 💙

April Overview

I’ve literally just realised that it is well into May and that I am overdue posting a round-up of my achievements in April.

This is probably going to be a short post as I don’t feel like I’ve achieved anything. It’s just been one of those really busy months where you don’t actually do anything of real merit, but it has exhausted you anyway.

Plus, I haven’t been posting very much recently. Work is crazy and my head just hasn’t been in a happy, blogging place.

But I’ve been here before, and my monthly overviews generally help me to realise that my life has actually been progressing more than I initially thought. (I hope!)

So, here goes..

Recent achievements

  • My new website for my life coaching business is up-and-running and I have even posted some stuff. Only problem is, I have 1 subscriber so far, and literally no traffic. It is becoming a little disheartening and I’m not too sure what to do next. It is so easy to just give up, but I want this! My life is pretty jam-packed right now and I need the time and motivation to grab it by the balls and run with it. So this will be one of my goals.. if you fancy taking a look, you can find it over at http://www.ahappierlifeforyou.co.uk.
  • Girly alert! I decided to get eyelash extensions, which I think is the most girly thing I have ever done. I’m one of those girls (women) who has a standard look – a bit of liquid eyeliner, concealer and mascara, and if I’m happy with it, I’m ready to go. My eyelashes though are really fine, and without mascara can look virtually invisible. I can’t apply fake eyelashes for love or money, but wanted to make my life a little bit easier, and also treat myself. Ok, so they aren’t cheap but they do look lovely. For once, I can wake up and be ready to go!!
  • I painted my bedroom!! I find decorating to be a massive chore and have held off on painting my bedroom and the spare room. To be honest, I couldn’t really be bothered, and not many people see them so I didn’t see the point. But I had a tin of white emulsion left over from painting my son’s ceiling, and I just went for it one weekend. Looks miles better. Need some nice accessories now.
  • I had a week off from work. Yay! This was an achievement because work is pretty hellish right now, and any time away from the place is a massive bonus to life in general, and also my mental health. I am becoming a little stressed out with it all. 😔

Told you. Not many achievements. I’m exhausted a lot of the time toiling away at a job I am beginning to hate, and I can’t see a respite in the near future.

But, let’s try to remain positive!

Goals for May

  1. I need to seriously look at my future with regards to my career. I can’t carry on working my backside off in a dead end job, so it is time to get off said backside and do something about it.
  2. I need to start working on my business and taking it seriously. I know it’s going to be hard work getting it off the ground, so I need to look at reducing some of my commitments. The only commitment I want to reduce is my job. So I’m in a bit of a predicament!
  3. Work on my website, IG and Facebook pages. I spend loads of time on my recreational Facebook pages but I need to concentrate on the stuff that I am hoping will make me money! Yeah, it’s fun to write poetry and post pretty pictures, but it ain’t making me a living! Sadly.
  4. Complete my coaching courses. Another thing I have fallen behind on. Once completed, I have been considering doing a course in business, so I know how to run one!
  5. Catch up with my friends. I’m feeling pretty social this month so have been arranging days and nights out with my closest pals. All work and no play makes Jo a dull girl!
  6. Post more on my blog! Goes without saying really, but with all of the above, will I really have the time?! 🤔

So, lots to do! Let’s hope my overview for May is more positive!

Have a fab weekend!

Three Days, Three Quotes Challenge – Day 1

Day 1

Thank you to my blogging friend, Earthwalking, for nominating me for the “Three Days, Three Quotes Challenge.” I would highly recommend checking out his blog as it really is gorgeous.

Here are the Rules:

1 Thank the person who nominated you.

2 Post a quote for three consecutive days.

3 Nominate three bloggers for each post.

And the Quote:

I love this quote. I think it describes very simply yet perfectly what happiness is.

If you are familiar with my blog, you may have read snippets about my struggle with clinical depression in my younger years. Nowadays, I strongly believe that happiness is all about positive thinking, and having the ability to believe that you are happy, no matter what your situation.

Easier said than done, I know, but your frame of mind does play a massive part in your mood patterns.

Check out my website http://www.ahappierlifeforyou.co.uk for more inspiration.

And my Day 1 Nominees Are:

Laura Sharp amazingjourney.blog

kelseyywritess

Thoughts of Adventure

Congrats to my nominees!  There is no timeline to respond, and you do not have to participate if you don’t want to, but you should check out these blogs.

March 5th Memories

Monday was a significant day for me, although I wish it wasn’t. Every year when March the 5th comes around, it reminds me of Him.

It the birthday of The One That Got Away.

Well, I say The One That Got Away, but what I really mean is The Bullet I Dodged.

Even though, I still think of him. But not in an I Wish You Were Mine kind of way. More a What Was I Thinking kind of way.

There is always The One that you fall for with your entire being, only for them to break your heart so completely that it will probably never heal again.

And even if it does, it will always have fault lines and missing pieces.

He was that person. I thought it was real love. I thought he was The One. But now I’ve come to my senses, I’m not sure what I was thinking.

I no longer miss him. I no longer want him back. I no longer think of him when I wake each morning, and last thing at night.

But he does still cross my mind, more often than I am comfortable with. I’m certainly not in love with him anymore. I liken it to an important lesson that changes your life forever, and which stays with you until you learn something new and just as important. Like figuring out algebra or something. Having my heart smashed into pieces by him has taught me the hardest lesson I have ever had to learn – that my low self-esteem has led me into situations I should never have even considered being involved in.

Now I’m learning to love myself instead of men who really aren’t worth my time and effort, I suppose it is only normal to mull over the mistakes I’ve made in the past, and the lessons I’ve learned.

That’s the only reason I still think about him. Because this heart is now closed. This heart is now healing.

The Sunshine Blogger Award

Happy Wednesday, everybody!

I am very excited to have been nominated for The Sunshine Blogger award by the lovely Elisabeth. You can find her over at https://ebachmann15.wixsite.com/borninthe90s – check out her blog!

So, here’s what I have to do next..

The Rules for The Sunshine Blogger Award are:

1. Thank the blogger who nominated you and link back to their blog.

2. Answer the 11 questions the blogger asked you.

3. Nominate 11 new blogs to receive the award and write them 11 new questions.

4. List the rules and display The Sunshine Blogger Award logo on your post and/or in your blog.

My Nominations (in no particular order..)

1. https://alittle-sunshine.com/

2. https://livinguktaiwan.wordpress.com/

3. https://kelseyywritess.wordpress.com/

4. https://mrsmilesrecovers.com/

5. https://planet-dom.com/

6. https://stepphhsays.com/

7. https://thoughtsofadventure852428559.wordpress.com/

8. https://missbossyreviewsadventuresandconfessions.wordpress.com/

9. https://booknerdtravels.wordpress.com/

10. https://diaryofazombiemum.wordpress.com/

11. https://thebutterflygirlweb.wordpress.com/

Questions for Nominees

1. How did you choose your blog name?

2. What is your greatest ambition?

3. Where is the most exotic location you have travelled to?

4. What is your favourite book?

5. If you could be an animal for the day, what would it be?

6. When was the last time you laughed uncontrollably?

7. What is your drink of choice?

8. Which famous person, dead or alive, would you like to have lunch with?

9. What is your first childhood memory?

10. What is your favourite pizza topping?

11. Can money buy you happiness?

My Answers to Elisabeth’s Questions

1. What inspired you to start a blog?

I have always loved to write, but lack confidence in my own abilities. However, as writer is my career of choice, I decided I needed a platform to promote my writing abilities, boost my confidence, and also as a reason to write more. So here I am!

2. If you could do anything, what would you do?

If this is related to work, I would love to be a published author. I would also like to run an animal sanctuary and rescue ill-treated and abandoned animals.

3. Where is the favorite place you have ever been?

I really liked Santorini, although only visited briefly on a day trip from Crete. But my heart lies in Abersoch, Wales, where I spent a huge part of my childhood.

4. What is the worst purchase you have ever made?

Back in 2016, I was at a crossroads in my career path (still am) and I decided to invest in a freelance journalism course. After paying for it, I discovered I just didn’t have the time or energy to invest in the course, which involved pretending to actually be a journalist. This involved interviewing people, chasing up quotes, etc. As a single parent working five days a week, I struggled from the start to keep up with the in-depth assignments, and gave up halfway through. My heart wasn’t in it, and I wish I’d thought properly about my circumstances before I enrolled on and committed to the course. Silly me.

5. What is the most interesting thing you have read or seen this week?

I just started reading Hide and Seek by Richard Jay Parker. Seems pretty gripping. I also watched the movie mother! with Jennifer Lawrence at the weekend. I wouldn’t describe it as interesting. More mind-bogglingly weird.

6. Who are your favorite musicians?

At the moment, my playlist consists of U2, Michael Kiwanuka, Alabama Shakes, Stereophonics, The Beatles, St. Paul & The Broken Bones, and The Who.

7. What is your favorite time of day?

I quite like early weekend mornings, when I can get up to a silent house and relax with a cup of tea and a book.

8. Coffee or tea? Why?

I prefer tea, because coffee gives me a headache. In all honesty, I’d love to be a dedicated coffee drinker, but I’m just not that into it.

9. What is your favorite animal and why?

I love all animals, but I would probably have to choose the cat. I can’t live without a cat in my life. I find them essential. They have all of the qualities that I admire in a friend – they are low-maintenance, cute to look at, and honest about their feelings. 💜

10. What do you see yourself doing in 5 years?

Hopefully working as a writer, a proofreader, or a full-time blogger. But whatever I end up doing, I hope to be happy.

11. What is your silliest story?

Years ago, I challenged my sister to a Malteser eating match. We both bought a packet of Maltesers and had to see who could fit the most Maltesers into their mouths. My sister managed to fit around 10 into her mouth, but I won! I crammed all 18 Maltesers in the packet into my mouth. My jaw was stretched to its limits and I couldn’t chew, or even breath very well, afterwards. But I won. 😂