Winging It: Life, And How Not To Do It

So, I decided to take the weekend off from blogging. In fact, I took the weekend off from most things. I temporarily forgot about my to-do list, and basically just relaxed. To be fair, I think I deserved it.

Since my public meltdown on here the other week and the support I received from some of you amazing people, it feels like all of my worry and anxiety and stress has kind of deflated. It doesn’t feel as important anymore, as if the very act of writing it down has neutralised the negative feelings. Instead, I feel a lot more chilled out, and also a little indifferent. Why should a job I don’t particularly care for have so much influence over my life and my emotions?

Of course, I am merely avoiding the issue and I know it will raise its ugly head again very soon, unless things change. We have a new member of staff starting next week so things may improve. But after 18 months of the same or similar levels of shit, I’m sceptical. I think it’s time to move on, and my current indifference is merely an emotional plaster that will eventually peel off.

If only life was easier and we all had jobs that we loved, and relationships with 100% trust and loyalty, and happy home lives with enough money to pay the bills and holiday every year. If only.

I’m guessing there must be people out there who do have all of this, and if you are one of those lucky people, I am jealous.

I’m at such a crossroads in my life right now that I need to sit myself down and give myself a good talking to. I’m 42 this year – why haven’t I figured out where I am going, what I want to do, who I want to be with? Should I have this figured out by now? Or am I destined to waste my days away in passionless jobs just to pay the rent, coming home to my cats and my books and my wine. Actually, I don’t mind the latter, but do I really want to be alone forever?

Ok, I need to compile a short-term bucket list. What I want to have achieved by the end of 2019.

Yep, 2019. Plenty of time then, so I don’t really have any excuses. Here goes..

  1. Enrol on the life coaching course I’ve had my eye on. I know what I want to do but I don’t have a lot of confidence in my abilities, mainly because it is something I haven’t done before. Ask me to lead and organise a team of people, or process a pile of timesheets and I will amaze you. But life coaching? Zero confidence in myself. So, get qualified, join the ACCPH (Accredited Counsellors, Coaches, Psychotherapists and Hypnotherapists) and go from there.
  2. Book a holiday. Anywhere really, although preferably somewhere nice and hot with interesting places to visit and a beach. And cocktails.
  3. Get a new job. Yes, I know the #1 thing is going to happen, but I still need to pay the bills before I build up a solid client base. And I can’t keep dragging myself into the hellhole I currently work in.
  4. Open myself up to the possibility of love. Ok, this is probably the one I’m least confident about as I don’t have much faith in people. But it would be nice to have someone in my corner for once.
  5. Have more faith in me. I’m a mess really, aren’t I? If I had more faith in myself, I wouldn’t even be writing this list. I know I have strengths but I get scared when it comes to applying them to something I really want. And then I run away and hide.

Life coaching? I think I need someone to coach me before anything else. After all, I can’t wing it forever.

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March Overview

Well, March has been a busy month for me with various comings and goings, and a little decision-making too.

I’m hoping that April and beyond will witness a huge change to my life, one that I have wanted for a long, long time. Exciting times!

So, let’s jump straight to it.

Recent achievements:

  • I have finally decided what I want to be when I grow up, and I have even created a website, an Instagram, and a Facebook page for my new life coaching venture, A Happier Life For You. It is still very early days and I am taking it all one step at a time. I don’t think becoming self-employed is something I should rush into. I am also mulling over the best way to market myself – if anybody has any suggestions or feedback, please don’t hesitate to let me know.
  • Work was getting a little more exciting, with a variety of new tasks coming my way, which made my working week so much more interesting. However, more recently, my co-worker was fired, which has halted my progression, hopefully temporarily, while they look for a replacement. Plus, my manager has recently gone on maternity leave, so things are up in the air right now – fingers crossed for improvements in the coming weeks.
  • I have started a Happiness Coaching course, and also a Handcrafted Herbalism Mini-Course. I’ve always had an interest in herbs and herbal medicine so this should be interesting.
  • I read 13 books in March. I’m quite proud of that fact as I do have a lot on right now, with courses and Facebook pages and the setting up of new businesses. I guess my New Years Resolution of organising my time better is actually working, as it is giving me oodles more time to read!!
  • I have been attending the gym every week for the past five weeks. Go me! Okay, so I only stay for an about an hour, but I think that’s adequate right now, especially for somebody who loves sitting around and being lazy so much.
  • I got a pay rise at work. Woohoo! This only happened today, and this post has been in my drafts all week because I couldn’t concentrate on getting it finished. But again – WOOHOO!!

I can’t think of anymore achievements right now but I think they will suffice. I am feeling quite positive about life at the moment, so let’s just hope I continue in this vein.

Goals for April:

  1. Continue going to the gym. I really need to invest in a sports bra so I can jog on the walking machine thingies. And I still need to eat healthier and cut out on the wine. Well, on weekdays anyway..
  2. Complete my coaching course and get my Certificate of Completion. Then enroll onto the next course to further my coaching knowledge.
  3. Work at developing my website. This may take some time as I am not particularly tech-savvy. A blog is easy. An actual website that has to impress people into using my services is scary!
  4. Gain clients. I’m not quite sure how yet, but I’m working on it.
  5. Train the new girl at work. Yes, they have replaced my co-worker, the one who was fired, and the new girl/lady is starting later in the month. Hopefully she will be a good fit for the team.

They are pretty big goals so I’m going to limit it to just the five. Watch this space to see if I achieve them, or check out my website at https://ahappierlifeforyou.co.uk/. I would appreciate your follow over there!

What goals do you have for April?

Going Solo

So, I have been doing some major thinking over the past few weeks. If you are familiar with my posts, you will know that I have been at crossroads in my career life for a while now. In short, I have absolutely no idea what I want to be when I grow up, and have been merely existing in my current role as a payroll administrator.

Well, I am excited to say, there have been some small developments in that area.

Actually, I’m hoping that these small developments will turn into something big, but let’s take things one step at a time.

I have decided that I would like to be a life coach. Furthermore, I have started a new business blog, Instagram, and Facebook page for my life coaching career, called A Happier Life For You.

Now, for those darlings who follow the links to check out my new online venture, it is still in very early stages. What I mean by that is, my website is virtually unprepared, and I have barely posted over on Facebook and IG.

But I’m getting there, slowly but surely.

By writing about it today in this blog post, I am committingmyself to it, which will definitely encourage me to continue.

I know what I want, but I sometimes lack the motivation, especially when I have other stuff going on in my life.

Of course, I’ve still got my office job as I do need to pay the bills, but this is a great opportunity for me to take control of my working life and work for myself instead of dealing with bad management and office politics.

Exciting times ahead! And if you do visit my IG, FB, or business blog and give me a follow/like, I’m not joking when I said there isn’t yet much to see – but it would be very much appreciated. As would any feedback or suggestions for my website. 😊