Poetry Corner

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The memories
come in waves,
often racing into my
consciousness
like white horses,
sweeping in
with violence,
battering at the walls
of my mind
relentlessly,
yet also,
sometimes
with the subtlety of
the slow shushing
of the tide
on a summer’s eve,
seeping into
my thoughts
quietly yet
insistently;
they cannot be
ignored
no matter how hard
I try, they
are there,
colouring
my emotions
in ocean blue,
reminding me
of you.

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©️j.sexton

Poetry Corner

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It was quietly —
like the soft falling of snow
on a winter’s eve,
like an autumn’s leaf
gently detaching itself
from the branch
of a tree —
quietly, so quietly,
did you fall
out of love with me,
so silently that
I barely noticed
until it
was there,
an unavoidable sign
in neon lights
before my eyes,
or maybe
I watched it unfold
yet pretended
not to see.

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©️j.sexton

Poetry Corner

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Her heart was vibrant
and all-encompassing,
yet at times
uncertain,
and all she needed
was someone to
tell her it was okay,
and allow her to
bloom in all
the right ways;
but yours was
a cowardly heart,
hiding in the shadows,
flying beneath the radar,
filled with wretched
doubt and fear,
and you always knew
that she
burned too brightly
for you,
but you tried to
extinguish her
anyway.

~

©️j.sexton

Poetry Corner

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She is an ocean
of unfathomable depths
so do not draw near
if you aren’t
prepared to
dive deep
for she isn’t a fan
of shallow living
and you will never see
the true light
within her if you
only wade;
immerse yourself
in her waters,
often still,
seemingly
impenetrable,
at times,
tempestuous
and wild,
but also soothing,
and welcoming,
encompassing and
filled with beauty;
beware
if you cannot
swim.

~

©️j.sexton

Poetry Corner

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I often wonder
what I have learned
from this life
as I stagnate,
rarely moving from
the position I have chosen,
but then I recall
the battles
I have fought
and the changes
I have made to
ease the hurt
in my heart;
I remember
the skills
I have developed and
all of the ways
that I have evolved,
and I realise that
life does not have to
move forward
in great leaps and bounds
but a soft, slow shuffle
with contentment
and gratitude in my heart
is more than enough.

~

©️j.sexton

Poetry Corner

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You think you know me
because I open up
my veins
and spill my
heart’s blood onto
the welcome impartiality
of these pages,
sanding my feelings down
to their bare bones
in an effort to
express
the way I felt.
You think you know me
but I can assure you
that you don’t,
for I am more than
these words,
I am more than
this emotion,
I am more than the
hurt and the pain
that I share
with you.
I am more.

~

©️ j.sexton

Poetry Corner

If you listen carefully
on a dark and gusty night,
you will hear me,
speaking in tongues,
weaving my stories
of sin, and failure,
and love gone wrong,
a love that died
slowly and painfully,
dragged out
excruciatingly,
crushing bones and
killing heartbeats
beneath departing feet,
and afterwards,
the blood spatter
sank into the fabric
of everyday life,
staining it forever,
so I can never forget,
and my tales bear forth
relentlessly,
destined to speak
their truths until
the stain washes away;
if you listen
and look carefully,
you will find me,
the black-hearted girl,
stuck in the space
between darkness
and light.

©️j.sexton

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Poetry Corner

The World

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Her beauty is ephemeral
and runs so deep;
she is the gloriousness
of a clear, dark night
when the stars
hang like diamonds
in the black velvet of the sky;
she is the deliciousness
of the scent of
fresh coffee,
rich and spicy and
often complex;
she is a bright,
summer’s morning,
with the dew on her face
and such promise
in her eyes;
she is the shoreline
at high tide,
constantly changing
with the
ebb and flow
of the sea,
yet always present;
she is all around,
yet nothing you have
ever seen or met,
so appreciate her
for the force of nature
that she is.

~

©️ j.sexton // http://www.facebook.com/jsextonwriter/

February Overview

After January’s epic record of blog posts in one month, and a fantastic start to 2018 blog-wise, February has admittedly been a little hit and miss. I’m going to blame it on the fact that it’s a shorter month, but in reality I’ve been juggling so many different balls that it’s been difficult to keep all of them up. Who knows what to prioritise, when there are so many different projects on my schedule.

I don’t feel as positive as I did last month, but my life is currently a turmoil, and I’m unable to concentrate on anything for very long. This I will blame on the full moon.

So let’s put things into perspective, and look at my recent achievements as well as my goals for March.

Recent achievements

  • My dad came to visit and I had a lovely weekend catching up with family and friends I haven’t seen in a while.
  • I had my review at work and, following on from that, am changing my job role slightly to include different tasks. This is reassuring as I have become quite bored with the job role in recent months, and it has made me feel a little more positive about my career path within the company.
  • I have rejuvenated my first blog Fragments of my Mind, which includes poetry from my Facebook page of the same name. This is to coincide with my new Instagram page showcasing my poetry. I am hoping to self-publish a book of poetry later in the year, so watch this space!
  • My best friend Michelle came to stay for the weekend and we had a catch up. February has been quite a social month, for me anyway, which is probably another reason why I haven’t posted much! I do find socialising quite exhausting though, and part of me is glad that I’ve got it out of the way in one month (including my girls night out to Manchester at the end of January.) I can look forward to a few quiet months before the hoards descend on me again!
  • I drove in the snow, and didn’t get stressed about it! This is a definite improvement.

Now I’ve written it all down, I really don’t appear to have achieved much this month, which is disappointing. But again, I will blame it on the fact that it’s been a shorter month!

Goals for March

  1. I went to the gym today. Yes, I really did! And I’m going to try to make it a regular thing. Yep, I’ve shocked myself! Seriously though, I need to exercise more and, surprisingly, I actually enjoyed it.
  2. I plan to continue writing my poetry and get my book in order. I’d like it to be 200 pages long, so I’m finding inspiration wherever I can. My new friend Lindsay has been a massive help. She self-published her book of poetry Wild is She last year, and I’m quite honestly in awe.
  3. I’m going to attempt to get back into the habit of blogging regularly, and also catch up on my letter writing. I’m quite woefully behind with this. I have no explanation for this as I do love to write, whether it’s blog posts, letters or poetry. So why I find it difficult to motivate myself to write a letter to my friends, I really don’t know.
  4. Apparently, changes are afoot at work and I am interested to discover where this will leave me. Hopefully in a better place than I have been so far!

I’m planning on taking baby steps in the first quarter of the year so I will keep it to 4 goals for March. Admittedly, the majority are quite significant and potentially life-changing goals, so there is that. But there is no point in expecting too much from myself, so I’m happy with the 4. Extra achievements will be an added bonus!

What are your goals for March?