I noticed recently that the majority of the bloggers I have met on social media are in their early twenties. Much younger than me, and that makes me a little sad.
Starting out at 40, I am probably considered a dinosaur in this age of the internet. When I was 20, blogging didn’t exist. Nobody had a mobile phone, and Mark Zuckerburg was a weedy nerd (probably), just starting out at high school. How did we cope, I hear you cry? It was a different time. If we wanted to speak to our friends, we left the house to see them.
Sounds like hell, right?
If blogging had been a thing back then, my life would have probably taken a significantly different route to the path I chose to meander along. And that also makes me a little sad.
But I can’t really blame that on the lack of the internet. If I had pulled my finger out and followed my dreams when I was young, maybe I wouldn’t be so disillusioned and bored with my career now.
So there are the things I don’t like about me. Well, a fraction of them, because there are a lot of other things I could have definitely done better. But hey, this blog post isn’t a list of my worst points.
It’s a list of my best points.
This is going to be tricky. You know when you go for a job interview, and they ask you what skills you can bring to the role, and you laugh awkwardly and waffle on about being hyper-organised and a hard-worker? Or when you have a yearly review and are asked to list your strengths and weaknesses, and the latter is the meatier list?
Not you? Okay, well that’s me. I have always had self-esteem issues, and find it incredibly difficult to look past my intense modesty and ‘big myself up’, as they say. And if I do, it’s the superficial things like being hyper-organised and a hard-worker. I don’t like to talk about myself.
This blog post is about me.
So…. what do I like about me?
Now I am quite self-aware, and I know my flaws. I know I’m not perfect. I make mistakes. I can be cold, and difficult to get close to. I deliberately push people away and isolate myself. But then I have learnt the hard way that I can only really rely on myself.
While all of the above is true, I am a better person when I am able to spend enough time on my own. I need to recharge my batteries, and this time alone helps me to be a reasonable person when in company.
So it’s actually for your own good!
But, as I said, this isn’t a blog post about my flaws. This is a blog post about my attributes. Here goes..
1. Despite being a big-time loner and steering clear of high maintenance relationships, I find it difficult to hide my compassionate streak, which is a mile wide. If I see somebody in need, I am there like a shot. I am a fantastically loyal friend, and hate to see anybody I care about suffering. I have spent inordinate amounts of time counselling friends and family through turmoil in their lives, dishing out advice and being a constant shoulder to cry on. I champion the underdog, and take the broken under my protective wing, where I am dedicated to nursing them back to health.
2. I have a crazy sense of humour, and I like to make people laugh. My humour is quite wry and self-deprecating, and can err on the inappropriate at times. I like to lighten tense situations with a stupid comment. Unsurprisingly, when I recently took part in a quiz on Facebook to find out which Friends character I was most like, the answer was Chandler.
3. I am extremely open-minded, and try not to judge people too harshly. In fact, the closer I am to someone, the less likely I am to judge them. If you are my friend, I will accept you wholeheartedly.
4. I’m honest. Sometimes, brutally so. Not to be cruel, but ultimately to be kind. Does that dress make you look fat? I’ll tell you. Is your boyfriend a dick? You can rely on me to point it out. I don’t like to deliberately hurt people though, so I’ll only tell you if you ask.
5. I’ve always got wine in. Always. So, if you fancy getting drunk and silly and putting the world to rights, I’m your girl.
So, there are my best bits. 😊